Journal- Thursday March 17th 2022
I’m opening up in the hopes of reassuring anyone else like me who does not have this life thing figured out that you’re not alone. I want to normalize being transparent, because I personally can’t cope with life by acting like I have it all together. Life persists with its dire need for hope.. And recently, homesickness and depression has attacked me out of nowhere.. again.. I find that it’s capable of springing up like a weed no matter how easy or hard a day is. It convinced me for a time that life would never be beautiful again, that my emotions were dead, and I believed the lie in my mind that told me God was not meeting my emotional needs. Despite this recurring battle I’m thankful for friends who reminded me of the importance and power of God’s word, and thankful for the way He gave me a spirit of contentment and joy when I asked him to restore it in me. I don’t know why I’m still surprised, considering how many times He’s helped me. “He restores my soul” (Psalm 23)
“The sun’s still shining through the night
The stars still burn in the daylight
Sometimes you just can’t trust your eyes
I never left your side.”
(Lyrics from “Never Left Your Side” by Stellar Kart)